I hate to do this on my blog, but I just have to get it out. I am so frustrated and saddened by my grandmother. Growing up, my sister and I always knew that for some reason, we came second in my grandmother's heart to our cousin Amanda. Amanda is actually our second cousin, so she's my grandmother's niece. I love Amanda like a sister, so it's never affected my relationship with her. I've usually just put up with my grandmother's crap, but it all has been really bothering me since CJ's first birthday party.
My grandmother walked into the party an hour early, and sat down and didn't help at all. She's not an old lady, she's a spry lady of 60. She could've at least offered. She proceeded to complain about everything, the heat, traveling, EVERYTHING. I didn't see her hold my son at all. Her husband couldn't get enough of him and my great-grandmother spent a lot of time holding him too. My grandmother was also bragging to my sister-in-law about all her diamonds that her husband buys her and going on and on about all the money she spends. So imagine my surprise when we open up the card for CJ from her and it is a $10 bill. I don't even mind that she gave him a $10 bill. It's the fact that she couldn't even take the time to go out and pick him up a present. I know for a fact she was at the mall the day prior shopping because she called my mom to complain that her macy's card wasn't working. My great-grandmother barely even leaves her house and she managed to buy him an outfit.
So then for the icing on the cake. My cousin Amanda is pregnant, which is awesome. I told her I'm going to throw her baby shower for her. So my grandmother tells me to let her know when it'll be so she can send some money to help pay for it. Are you kidding me?! Where were you at my baby shower? Why was my mom going out of her way to save up for my baby shower while you were sipping margaritas out by the pool? She was also talking about how she's going to spoil Amanda's baby, which again is fine, but why can't you even hold your grandson? Your grandson who is by the way, the most amazingly perfect and happy baby in existence.
So in the end, I'm just really irritated by the whole thing. I don't want him growing up wondering why his great-nana doesn't love him just like we wondered growing up. I'm going to write her a letter and tell her that she can either make her ONLY great-grandchild a priority in her life or she can choose not to have a great-grandchild in her life.
So what do you think? Am I being crazy and irrational? Or do you think how I feel is justified? Let me know!