On Monday I went to an OB/GYN here in Derry who specializes in fertility. First of all, she was amazing. I loved her. She was sweet and obviously very smart and very caring. As far as my diangosis, she told me that since we have technically been trying for over a year, we are clinically "infertile". She then said that not to let the word "infertile" scare me because she didn't think that it was going to be too hard to fix me. (Knock on wood.)
She suspects that I may have some Poly-cystic ovarian syndrome. This is quite possible since both my mother and aunt have had hysterectomies as a result of PCOS. She is going to do bloodwork and all the necessary tests to make sure, and then she will get me onto something that will help. She thinks that this is part of the reason I lost all my baby weight right after I had CJ and then gained 20 lbs.
Even more than the infertility, the doctor was more concerned with my health for the rest of my life. She said of course the short-term goal is to get pregnant, but the long-term goal is to live a healthy life. It was nice to hear that she didn't just think of me as a vessel to make babies. Because (possible overshare alert) I haven't gotten my period since February and hadn't gotten it since October before that, she was a little worried. She told me that having that much lining just isn't healthy. So first things first, I'll be going on Provera to induce my period. Anyone ever dealt with that before? I'm expecting that it is going to be the worst period ever. Like she said, I probably have a lot of "schmutz" up there.
It may be that the Provera is all my body needs to start up my cycles again. Since I was as regular as clockwork before and got pregnant so easily the first time, that is a possibility. If however, I don't, she will most likely start me on Clomid to make sure that I ovulate. Clomid slightly ups the risk of having multiples, but I am perfectly ok with that. We actually used to rub my belly and say "Twins twins, big strong twins" with CJ. :)
So why am I happy that I've been officially diagnoses as "infertile"?
Because it is an answer. I don't have to just feel like I'm broken and have no idea how to fix it. I now have a definite diagnosis and definite plans to fix it. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders just knowing that we are working on it. It is possible that this is the start of a long hard road, but it is a step in the right direction. The OB/GYN doesn't seem to think that it is going to be that hard. She said what I thought, that my body just needs a kick in the pants to remind it what it was built for.
Did you ever have any fertility problems? Were you ever on Clomid or Provera? I would really like to hear your stories- good or bad. I'd like to know what I am in for.